Growing Restless

Lately I find myself growing restless of the same old, same old.

We wake up, do our morning routine, become busy with the day, blah blah blah!

God has really been moving in our church lately. Last Sunday our Pastor was not able to preach, because of God moving. I always love when that happens. It usually means the God really wants to touch and change people. Some bad always seems to come to the surface, but His goodness shows through, always.

I have been wrestling with how I live my life for some time now. During this struggle, I have been battling depression, lack of joy and feeling general lack of direction. I have felt as though I was struggling a bit too much, and in vein. I have no problems fighting for what is good, as long as I know I am fighting the right fight & that it will be fruitful.

The fight was beginning to wear me down. During the service that God really moved in our church, even though I stayed at my own seat, in the back of the church ~ most of the church was in the alter. I just felt the need to stay still. Be still.

My vision has changed. My desires have intensified! My joy has been restored and I know that God met me where I was. He blessed the time I have spent struggling and it seems more than worth it!

I am anxious to break out of the box and do things differently. I'm tired of tradition and religion telling me what to do and say. I can tell that He has been working on my heart over the last few years. I can look and the weeds that have been removed, and new growth. I am excited to watch and experience the fruits of the labor.

I don't say any of this to take pride in this or to say look at me. It is all give HIM praise and glory! Without Him, I am useless.

If you are feeling hopeless, lost or as if the struggle is too much... call on HIM! He will meet you where you are now. He is not waiting for us to become perfect, just to come to Him.