Adoption, babies and emotions

We are patiently (okay, maybe that's a stretch) waiting for our tax return. This is the first year that we get to take some of the adoption tax credit. AWESOME by the way.

Over the weekend we sat down and seriously talked about how we want to move forward with the next adoption. At this point, unless God tells us otherwise, we will be doing another Domestic Infant Adoption. We had tossed around some other ideas, but this route just seems right. We are now praying about the money side of it, but know that God will take care of it.

As I sit in a quiet moment, I am so excited that I want to scream! haha Seriously though. We've seen God do awesome things in adoptions and I can't wait to see what He has planned for us. I am excited and nervous about how our next baby will come to our family.

Alot of the unknowns are out of the way with this adoption. We've sort of "been there done that" with the paperwork and interviews. This time we will only have to update our homestudy, so it won't be nearly as rough.

I wonder about our baby, much like I wondered about Nathan. Has he/she been conceived yet? What is going on in the lives of her birthparents? Is he/she in this state or across the country? Will he/she be healthy or have some complications? I have started praying for this child, even I know nothing about him/her. My heart already aches for the woman who will be carrying this baby and the decisions laid out before her. Yes, I am praying for her as well. I wonder how Nathan will react to the baby. He loves the babies at church so much and I think he will be an awesome big brother. (k, the tears are starting now.) I am not looking forward to sleepless nights, but know the best bonding happens at 2am! I think about the extended family, who may never get the chance to love this little one. I hope they will be supportive in the midst of their own pain.

I'm telling you, if you want a racing mix of emotions, consider adoption.