Real Happy

I just might have to delve into some deep stuff here. Hold on and hopefully you stick with me. I know usually it's all fun stuff about Nathan, I promise to get you back to your normally scheduled programming.

Lately everywhere I turn it seems like people are talking about being real. Even in the blogger world. See my friend Brea's posts here, here & here.

I have been really learning how to open up with people over this last year. Before if I were struggling or if anyone asked how I was, I simply smiled and said "good". Dealing with infertility and depression, that was probably the worst thing for me. I now have a few close friends with whom I can be really honest and a bunch of ladies I can talk to about some things. This has helped. I have also learned how to be real with God. Walking the adoption journey last year brought out so many emotions, and I gave them to HIM. I did not make them pretty first either. He knows what going on in me, so why should I polish it up first. Now, keep in mind, I was still respectful to the Creator of Life. Don't get me wrong.

Here's something that God has been dealing with me on. For a time and a season, I needed to delve deep and deal with things. I needed to get them out into the open and look at them honestly. It was a time of preparing the garden bed. I had some weeds and deep roots to deal with. You can only do that for a season though. Otherwise you become fixated on every little thing and uproot the new growth.

Hopefully this is making sense.

My new season of being real is a time of growth and seeing fruit in that growth. Yes, there will still need to be pruning and weed pulling.

As far as being accountable. I am going to be digging into the Word like never before. I will do my best to share what God is showing, in hopes that it will help someone else as well. I know some things will be just for me, and those I guard close to my own heart.